This is one of those poems that is not very good, needs a ton of editing but will not get out of my head. I imagine part of it will be useful, but for now, this is it, in its roughest form.
THE NIGHTSKY OFTEN LOOKS LIKE A MOUND OF FEATHERS.
Ever since you were young, you tried
to stay awake through the night, observing
only the odd shapes made through the room
as the moon shifted in your open window.
When I was young, there was a woman
of calico skin, eyes and tongue, curled up
on the side of a highway. I yelled to my mother
to stop the car, and when we backed up,
she had disappeared. She followed me
for years, through airports and gas stations,
always sickly, perfumed with what could only
be death and wind chimes.
Sometimes in the middle of the night
when we cannot sleep, we lie
in the middle of the backyard. We do not fear
this darkness or the strange shapes
of the Arizona shrubs and flowers
that seem to wilt with darkness.
We listen to the wind, in silence—and I wonder
if perhaps this isn’t part of a dream, too,
since sometimes we remember we really live
in Midwestern snow.
During one of these nights, you
make the mistake of telling me
of a woman who followed you
through your dreams
when you were young, one with calico
hair only, and I try not to believe you.
I pluck one of the flowers, wilted black
with nightfall, and smell the rank fumes
of its funeral, trying to decide
whether or not I ever
told you about her.